Bless my heart

So it is the last day of April 2012, which means tomorrow is the first day of May 2012. Which means I graduate in 26 days. Which means I move back to Maryland in 27 days. Which means I made it through a year living in Indiana without going completely crazy.
Life is so rad and rapid. No pain or sadness is forever, I am ready to start the next phase of my life.

*SIGH OF RELIEF*

Well this is me, Aaron Jones. Just as plain as can be. I am who I am, and I will be who I be. My future is not determined by my past. The people I knew will not effect the people I may meet. And the places I have been will not take the beauty away from the places I will go. Tomorrow is a brand new day to make new memories. The past is yesterday and yesterday is the past. I am completely ready for tomorrow and all that it offers.

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

Lately

Dear Cupid,
Send me somebody amazing to spend my days with. I promise to receive them with open arms, and be super nice and less snippy as I have been in the past with others you sent. No sir this time I will not push your blind date away cupid. So go ahead and send him bro!

xoxo

Back when before I relocated to Indiana I had very little free time, so I didn't watch much television. Any who since I have moved I have been watching many mind numbing television shows. Right now there are a lot of great things on television. 

• Game Of Thrones-A fictional HBO original series about an alternate universe with awesome characters and settings. The second season of the series recently started and I had already watched the first season. The show is amazing. 
• New Girl- A fox original series starring the lovely Zooey Deschanel, who I happen to love. I have been watching the this show from its start in the fall of 2011 and I love it. 
• Girls- A new HBO series which just started last week, I am slowly but surely falling in love with this series. 
• Once Upon a Time- Another show with magic and fun characters and sappy but very interesting plot. 
• Basketball Wives- This show is my dose of reality television that everyone should have. 

And these are the shows I am currently in love with, I am also awaiting the 6th season of True Blood which comes on in June. 

When I came home from school Friday I found my May issue of Marie Claire (Favorite Publication) waiting on the kitchen counter. I must say I love Zooey Deshchanel for the cover, she looks amazing. Slowly but surely I am becoming a huge fan of her and her new shoes ironically titled "New Girl". Any who she looks amazing on the cover! 

Progress

Well, this very awkward picture is my self portrait. I took this the other night before I planned to go to sleep right after I did my nightly journal entry and "work out" routine. I felt the need for a self portrait that represented  the changes that have occurred within me. This time time last year I was a completely different person than I am today. I am 100% sure of this because this time last year I hadn't even come out as a homosexual yet. Although I was on the rapid road to coming out, I had no clue how fast it would happen. This "self portrait" is very symbolic for me because it shows me in my purest form. It is on a very rare (aka non existent) occasion where people get a glimpse at me alone in my room. For the simple fact that I am alone in my room. In what I like to call my previous life I worked very hard at surrounding myself with people so I wouldn't have to be alone and face myself. But since I have relocated my time alone has increased and I have struggled to deal with some of my inner demons.
But by the grace of God now I am no longer afraid to be alone or be seen alone. Take a look at me now.

Found

My entire life I have struggled with feelings of inadequacy. I have always felt as though I was missing some aspect or quality that everyone else seemed to have. But recently, I have been "feeling myself" and with each day I am more comfortable with who I am, and less concerned with everyone else. So this new found confidence has led me to believe that I may have been looking for something I have had all along. And that is self worth, every one is worthy of loving themselves.
So today I have found the love for myself that I so desperately needed. I am finally on a good path, and I deserve a pat on the back.

Wish List

These are all of the things I would like to purchase before I start college in the fall. I am getting money for graduation along with a summer job so hopefully I can fulfill all my wishes by the end of the summer.

Hello, my name is Aaron and I have a slight obsession with printed media and advertisements. Since my social life has dwindled due to location circumstances, my weekends tend to be filled with reading Vogue, Harper's Bazaar, and Marie Claire (My three favorite publications). Once I read each month's issue cover to cover I dissect the magazine. I throw nothing from the publications away. But I put the most appealing pages on my bedroom wall. I have also done my sister's room. The rest of the pages go into shoe boxes under my bed. This process is therapeutic in many ways and offers me time to think and contemplate the mysteries of the universe. 

Good Day

xoxo

A glimpse into Aaron

I'm Aaron Jones, I am 17. I graduate high school this year. I am a son, a brother, and a friend. I am a dreamer, who can't seem to find a dream to stick to. I dream for a lot of things but most of all I dream about being content. How good it would feel to be content, with anything. I've looked for contentedness in others, I have looked for it in possible career paths, and even in suicide. I am unsure where my longing for contentedness comes from. Someday I hope my longing is fulfilled and I will keep searching until it is. I just pray that my search leads me to something that is good for me and not harmful to me mentally or physically.
I dream about lighter things as well, I dream about seeing the world, finding love, and being successful. Although I am not quite sure how you measure success.
Well that is a small glimpse into Aaron, thanks for reading.

No matter how hard you try to tame him, a tiger is still a tiger

He is still selfish

He still has his best interest at heart

Beware 

The worst thing you can do is give up on something you want. Although things may not always go as planned anything worth wanting should be worth fighting for. And if not fighting then at least immense effort.You will never get or keep anything for long that you aren't willing to fight for.
The concept of fighting for what I want is new to me, but I plan to work on it.

One thing is certain, I have some pretty legs & a face to die for. 

Evolution is the way of the world. Reinvention is the only thing that can save us from extinction. Watch, learn, and create as necessary. We are a vital part to the survival of this planet. 

Breath & Create.

Give the people what they want...what they miss...and they will love you like you never left

Somewhere, along a winding road I lost myself, in hope of finding myself. I set out on a journey to be seen and while on that journey I lost everything that made me who I am. And now I am here on a journey to regain everything that once made me beautiful to me.
I am starting over, and getting back to the way things were...Enjoy the ride